Random Chitchat 2020-2024

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After months of battling my burnout over the project, it was finally getting better, especially seeing new people joining the developer ranks and progressing fast (thank you for that). Confident, I started digging deeper into the code again, less afraid of getting back into the feelings revulsion and hopelessness I was having before. Then first kick came with the generator stack rewrite: I was confident I was doing the right thing, yet the PR got "bike-shedded" into oblivion. That put me off of developing for quite a bit again. But now, the latest incident has unfortunately really taken its toll. Having carefully designed the block system to be easily extensible and as user-friendly as possible, even with unit tests, was a matter of pride. Now it's down the gutter, eviscerated and replaced with a hard-coded blob generated from who knows where with awful structure and bad compile times, everything hard-coded, back to fixed numbers. The worst part, not a single piece of documentation on WHY it was changed, WHY it was believed to be better.

Now I'm back at the bottom of the burnout, can't really even read through the forums anymore, just thinking about Cuberite makes me sick. I realized I don't have the energy to do this anymore.

So I quit.