01-01-2015, 01:03 AM
She listed several reasons. I did not support her - everytime she wanted to talk to me, I just sat by the computer. Whenever she did something bad, I would punish her by not talking to her. Whenever I did something bad, she would try to talk to me and I would punish her by not talking to her. I did not help her with anything, she had to prepare the whole wedding by herself (and she almost called off the whole thing because of that). I would call her "painted" when she put her makeup on, in front of her colleagues, shaming her.
I know life is not easy with me, I feel guilty of most of these. But then, I have to defend myself. Since she started working, she did not have time for me at all. Whenever I wanted to do an activity, she would be still working, or was too tired to actually do anything. I do most of the house work - cleaning, cooking, washing, ironing - and she would just take it for granted without a single thank-you. When we finally got to go dancing, she would only complain about how bad I am and how I break her back. Nothing I did was ever appreciated. No wonder I got tired of this and started ignoring her in favor of the computer. And when we got home from the honeymoon (which was a disaster on its own, she took her parents and their friends with us) she would immediately go to a company event, got drunk and instead of calling me to come pick her up, she decided to sleep over at her boss' flat. And she wonders why I was furious afterwards. Whenever we quarreled, I was the one to come back with an apology, and she would just ignore me. This even happened during this Christmas, I tried three times to make up with her, but she was playing an ice queen, even avoiding me. I lost my nerve that day and went to my parents'; and that was the final nail in the coffin.
She says the love is gone. Maybe on her side, but I still love her deeply. Why oh why didn't I see the signs earlier and do something about it?
I know life is not easy with me, I feel guilty of most of these. But then, I have to defend myself. Since she started working, she did not have time for me at all. Whenever I wanted to do an activity, she would be still working, or was too tired to actually do anything. I do most of the house work - cleaning, cooking, washing, ironing - and she would just take it for granted without a single thank-you. When we finally got to go dancing, she would only complain about how bad I am and how I break her back. Nothing I did was ever appreciated. No wonder I got tired of this and started ignoring her in favor of the computer. And when we got home from the honeymoon (which was a disaster on its own, she took her parents and their friends with us) she would immediately go to a company event, got drunk and instead of calling me to come pick her up, she decided to sleep over at her boss' flat. And she wonders why I was furious afterwards. Whenever we quarreled, I was the one to come back with an apology, and she would just ignore me. This even happened during this Christmas, I tried three times to make up with her, but she was playing an ice queen, even avoiding me. I lost my nerve that day and went to my parents'; and that was the final nail in the coffin.
She says the love is gone. Maybe on her side, but I still love her deeply. Why oh why didn't I see the signs earlier and do something about it?